:: The Wedding Planner ::

Idea...idea...idea...please.... Last week i've got a call from my cousin in Kuching. She will be getting married next year probably in March. She wants me to help her on designing the goodies to give away to vip guests on that day. Ehem..of course i am in the list...i mean the vip guest list! I need a compact, perfect design for this, but i just couldn't think right now. But all i can think now.... i started to become like Mary Fiore in The Wedding Planner, the most prestigious wedding planner in San Francisco. (Perasan siot...) The different between me and Mary Fiore are :

1) I have found a love life of my own unlike her, she is damn busy until she couldn't find her love life.

2) I never think of something lucrative unlike her, that is her job...

3) MARY FIORE IS JENNIFER LOPEZ the beautiful specimen of humanity unlike me.... mmmm..... kuih lopeh (you don't just cushy nodding your head, agree ok... aku pelangkung pale tu nanti!)

Eeeeeee....Idea...idea....please idea....

Mmmm...my FIRST TIME

Wahhhhhh look at that....isn't that painting beautiful...?! wakakakakakakakka...Shut up for those who doesn't know how to appreciate A R T. Hehehehehehehehe... Kamsa hamnida (Thank You) for those who really likes that painting and I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH. Look at the 'girl', i mean the girl standing next to that exquisite painting, so 'eksyen', cekak pinggang lagi. You know who is she? She is an ARTIST, but not a famous amos singer, a dancer or an actress. She is just a 'sengal' artist who knows how to doodle things on the canvas cloth. Hey, don't smirking at me!! Aku tampo kang...

I named my painting 'FIRST TIME' because that was my first time doing such thing on canvas. It looks smudgy, ,don't you think so? But i think that we call ART. Everybody can be an artist, as long as they know how to draw. Even they just splash a can of paint on the canvas just like that...it can be considered a masterpiece has been churned out. <<< style="font-weight: bold;">My message : Use your right and left brain to find the meaning on that abstract, just use your own judgement. Ok la... SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

What is with RICH?

Ehem...ehem...today the tv program seems quite boring. I just like go deaf and mute. Plan to clean up the kitchen but can i do it later? Yes...you can (i heard voices answered that question for me). Suddenly i think about my old books and maganizes which 'steep in marinade' at the book shelves. I remember about the book which i bought last month EAT TO BEAT. It's all about what to eat to beat diseases. At the begining i was about to read that book, there are still unfinished topics that i need to cover.... but then i feel so 'malas' la today (am i that 'rajin' before??).

Time to day dreaming again. Hey..there are a lot of things i can achieve by that you know. Dream about being a rich people.....maybe like Bill Gates, the richest man in the worldddd.....he owns about 52.8 billion dollars, i wonder...if i work now, for how many years that amount will cover my salary?? I have read somewhere on the internet, that amount can pay Bush's salary for 132,000 years!! That was Bush okkkkkk..... And I have heard that Bill Gates would prefer not to be rich man (it sounds pathetic to me!). Wohh...that maybe words from someone who is already being declared as the richest man on the planet! Then i started to realize, that we call LIFE, where rich people doesn't care about being rich whereas people like me care so much how to have million dollars in the bank account (rob a Swiss Bank maybe!) hehehehehehe....

I guess maybe Bill Gates is one of good example of brilliant. But in Malaysia, I would like to take Tan Sri Syed Mokhtar Al Bukhary as the perfect epitome of brilliant (for me). People rarely talk about him and we hardly see him in the newpapers (except once he was caught in the business column), television and so on but he is one of the richest man in Malaysia. I first read about him from the limited edition magazine - Tycoon. Wow...he is so humble, generous, worldly-wise person and .....of course RICH. From there, i browse more about him from the internet, i just get more impetus to become a positive person when i read about the way he pursues success until he becomes what he is now.

Well...actually the word 'rich' is the same with the word 'beautiful'. Some people says 'beautiful' is subjective. I think 'rich' also can be categorized in that phrase too. For example; rich of loves, rich of smiles, rich of kids, rich of kindness, rich of peacefulness, rich of ostrich (can arr...?) and bla, bla, bla, bla..... I realize, I have all that 'rich' except for kids and ostrich, what else i want? I am happy for what i am now....i just suka berangan, tak salah kan? Ok la malas nak membebel lebih-lebih. SELAMAT BERPUASA KEPADA MUSLIMIN DAN MUSLIMAT SEMUA....

Desktop Housewife a.k.a Desperate Buddy

Last saturday i was overexcited with my birthday celebration with my friends. You know being a housewife after 10 years working, had made me totally insane! It's not that i am over qualified to be one of the nominees for the Hospital Tanjung Rambutan...but there's a 'bizarre mental awareness' coming out from myself when my friends said "Oi, kita keluar nak?". I feel like.... "Ok, Ok bila nak keluar, aku on aje! Bila tu bagitau aku? Aku on aje" (<Do i sound like crazy desperate people on earth? Jawabla kalau berani, jawab aku kata!!!!) You know la...last time we were seeing each other everyday, we were laughing for the stupid jokes we made everyday, we were having lunch everyday and suddenly one day all that sweet things were gone. Instead of being desktop housewife, i am a desperate buddy now...

Ok this time, we were having lunch at the Coffee Street. That was my first time there, according to SPL, the food served there was tasteful. Yes! you were right, SPL! I ordered Mee Goreng Mamak. This question is for myself>>> "Don't you have anything else in this whole world to order???" LM ordered Toast Bread with honey with banana, SPL with her Nasi Goreng Cendawan and Zalina ordered Nasi Goreng Udang. Semua sedap!! Oo..i forget to tell you about the gifts that i have received from all my dearest friends. Mmmm...feeling like when i was in kindergarten school, so happy with the gifts when i opened it. I've got a Nike bag from SPL, Bed set from Lady Marmalade and 1 piece of bath towel with Happy Birthday embroidery. That was so nice and sweeeeettttttttt like me...kikikikikikikikikiki...

We dropped by at LM's house to perform our Asar and Maghrib. After that we went to Giant Hypermarket, Zalina misses that place so much, i think without Giant, she would get abnormal high body temperature. I can see her spherical eyes when she was in there. SPL didn't join us, you know laa...with kids and husband at home waiting for her, how could she ignore that? Unlike me, for this two weeks Muazzam will be very busy with the plant shutdown. So he will be home late but i have confused one thing on that day when i went home, he's already on the bed...dreaming, i guess. Now you tell me who was late??

How you can be more interesting

I feel like want to eat anything i want today, don't care about the diet, shoooottt forget it! I feel like wish to go anywhere i wish to go, huh..care about the money, shoottttt how could i forget that i am not Trump or Hilton heiress. Fuhh... hope that i could fly to Korea, one of my dream place. Maybe Superman can take me there.... if only Superman exist and if only he would consider me as Lois Lane. Today i am just feeling so happy. Muazzam bought me a book - HOW YOU CAN BE MORE INTERESTING by Edward de Bono. First page...wow it's cool where the writer says something...mmmm it really flicks my mind thou!

"A BEAUTIFUL FACE WITH A BORING MIND, IS BORING, BORING, BORING

A BEAUTIFUL BODY WITH A BORING MIND, IS BORING, BORING, BORING

A FIT AND HEALTHY BODY WITH A BORING MIND, IS BORING, BORING, BORING

A CLEVER MIND CAN ALSO BE BORING, BORING, BORING"

Wohhh....i do hope that i am not hooked to one of this foreword. It's really sick being a boring person huh?! Yet i was thinking am i an interesting person? Mmmm...let me finish this book first then i know where i stand. I guess a boring person always thinks people around his/her is boring too. And i guess if we don't want to be called a boring person then... JANGAN BUAT MUKA BOSAN, SO TAKDE LA ORANG PUN BOSAN TENGOK KITA!

Anyway i am so happy today because today is myyyyyyyyyyyy birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.... come on sing together....

Superman Returns

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........... i have missed Superman Returns..... actually i like to see Brandon Routh, i mean the face, his face is so superman la! Muazzam said Superman Returns this time is not really 'kick' because they pick Brandon Routh to be the Superman. I asked "why?", then he answered, "because he is so damn handsome la....mana sesuai! One more thing, is too many love side than action la"

La...pulak dah! Boleh gitu?

I don't care what the reason is, I MUST SEE THE MOVIE! But it's too late now, the show is no more in the cinema i guess. Last week i was in my parent in law's house, actually i have something to do in KL, nanti la cerita panjang.... My father in law bought a Superman Returns dvd, i was so excited and started to watch it.

15 minutes later, i feel like i was watching Superman Returns in the hazy, you know la pirated dvd...but another 2 months, maybe i can get a 'clear, good, quality' pirated dvd for Superman Returns....(Do not attempt to follow this, say no to pirated dvd/cd, buy original! But i am not rich people, i don't work some more, can't afford to buy ori dvd/cd all the time mahh, so how mehh?) hahahahahahahahahaha

The Tailor Of Panama

One day when I was with my mom and dad going out for jalan-jalan, my mom said she needed a new blouse. So my dad and I, went over the boutiques in the shopping mall accompanying her to choose the best blouse. Too bad, after hundreds of blouse that we ‘scrutinized’, none of it hits her taste. So my dad asked my mom;

"Awak nak yang macam mana?"
(What type of blouse are you looking for?)

“Ala yang leher dia cekak musang tu..”
(I want something like, high collar..)

And then I asked her;

“Yang leher dia macam cheongsam tu ke mak?”
(You mean the collar like the ‘cheongsam’ one?)

She replied;

“Ha’ah yang tu la…kalau awak tengok rancangan Selamat Pagi Malaysia, ada pengacara tu pakai baju design tu, memang cantik la”
(Yess…exactly like that, if you watch the morning program by television, there is a host wearing the design that I want, it’s really exquisite)

After we have been struggling to find that type of blouse, suddenly my father gave an idea;

“Apa kata kita tempah aje? Lagi senang, nak cari yang dah siap design camtu, susah laa…”
(Why not we just tailor the blouse? Much more easier, it’s hard to find the ready made design for that type of blouse)

So we went straight to the tailor that my dad used to tailor his baju melayu and kemeja. The best part was, when the tailor asked my mom what kind of design she wants, my dad answered with very big confident and complete with a long imagination on the design;

“You ada tengok itu rancangan tiap pagi dekat RTM tak, Selamat Pagi Malaysia? Ada satu pengacara tv itu pakai baju macam design yang dia ni nak, dia punya collar tinggi…. baju labuh sampai lutut pakai dengan seluar la… bla bla bla bla and bla bla”
(Have you watched the morning show by RTM, Good Morning Malaysia? There is one host wearing that type of the design she wanted, the design has high collar, and blouse length until the knee wearing with the pants…)

Adoi la bapak akuuuu....…..and I was standing near the mannequin, grinned away when the tailor looked at my face as if he needs more explanation on what he has been asking for. It must be a lot of things puzzled the tailor after he heard that question. Let me picture what was in the tailor’s mind;

Perlukah aku jawab soalan cepumas orang tua ni? Atau
(Do I need to answer the ‘jackpot’ quiz from this old folk? Or)

Takde ke contoh design baju yang lebih susah dari yang bini pakcik nak weii….?Atau
(Don’t you have any designs that harder than this uncle….? Or)

Eh! aku kena tengok rancangan tu ke demi untuk pelanggan-pelanggan aku?
(Gee! Do I need to watch that tv program just for the sake of my customers?)

Italia vs Francia

Don't shoot me if you could not understand what i am saying, because i also don't understand it.... Niente niente!Ciao comestai mi amiko, amika? Bello e quello, potere, volere, dovere. Fabio Cannavaro magnificiente, Gianluigi Buffon excellente, Alessandro DelPiero, Fabio Grosso, Toni Luca, Alberto Gilardino, Gennaro Gattuso, AndreaPirlo, Mauro Camoranesi, Inzaghi Filippo all grande come'e' buona questa pizza! Come'e' buono questo latte! Casa e' piccolo... queste fotografie sono brutte. Questi panini sono deliziosi. Buon divertimento. Francesco Totti, Marcello Lippi, Zambrotta. Ventisette quarantotto settantotto sessantuno qindici. Facciamo un po' di aritmetica. Le signore, equita cane lampo fragola correzione papa' fava. Io non sono mai a casa non puoi telefonar. Per carita sto a dieta non puo preparar una semplice macedonia di frutta? Voi portate dei fiori alla signora io porto un libro di cucina.

I have got all the Italian words from the internet, sorry if any harsh words there, i did not mean it. Again, i repeat : I DID NOT MEAN IT. I did this just because one of my fav team - I T A L Y has won the semi final last nite.

Viva I T A L I A !!! Sekian, terima kaseyyyyyyyyyy....

Big Foot Sandcastle

from left: Zalina, me, Is, SPL and her Awisy

Last Saturday, i have joined in sandcastle competition that organized by 'my ex-company'. Muazzam did not want to join because he has something to do at home (Z z z z z z z z z z z.....good sleep for world cup). I was frustrated with one of my favourite team - Argentina did not make it mannn.... rasa macam nak terajang je tv semalam!! (feel like want to kick the tv!!). Muazzam also frustrated. We both 'dislike' Germany!!!

I went to Pantai Sepat with Zalina, also my best friend. A nite before that, i have called Zalina to confirm the time and she said;

"pukul 7 pagi aku ambik kau, jangan off kan handphone kau pulak, susah aku nanti!"
(i pick you at 7 am sharp, don't off your handphone, i will be in trouble!)

The meantime waiting for Zalina to arrive, 6.50 am i was like a very solehah (good) housewife, watering the grass at our compound (geeee...the first time in life i did this). Normally Muazzam will do this before he goes to work. And then 7.20am, i still waiting for Zalina.... Di mana janji melayumu itu Zalina?? hahahahahahahahaha.........

I have reached at Pantai Sepat near 8 o'clock. SPL was there busy with the registration. SPL is a secretary for the company recreation club.

Ok back to our sandcastle competition. Sculpture title is BIG FOOT CASTLE and our team name is Man Laksa. See attached photos. We have won 6th place, that's me holding the prize. When Muazzam sees our sandcastle, he said;

"laaa...patutla dapat no 6..."
(no wonder you got 6th place...)

Such an evil comment huh??!! Dengki la tu....

How Could An Angel Break My Heart

Feel like not talking today..... i turned on the radio, suddenly i heard this song by Toni Braxton.... and then i turned off the radio when the song completed. I was feeling so bad yesterday. When i was in the blueing....my mom called me, she complaints why RTM did not show the game between Brazil and Ghana last nite. And then i said, "Mak call la RTM, tanya diaorang?" (Mom, why don't you call RTM, and ask them?). My mom laughed and so did i. We have chat in about half an hour. Talking about world cup. My mom is England die hard fan. I always argue with her, what is so good about England? And then she will ask me back, what are so good about Brazil, Spain and Italy? Hahahahahahahaha...

Hey! Did i say 'feel like not talking today'? Fortunately, i have my mom...she has spiced up my day!

Happy Mother's, Father's Day!

Mak dengan abah Happy Mother's Day, Happy Father's Day! I love you both....

Some people say Mother's Day and Father's Day, we can celebrate it everyday, don't need to wait for that specific date to celebrate. That's absolutely right.

As i live and recall, i have never expressed how much i love my mak and abah. I mean verbally...say... I LOVE U, right in front of them. I don't know certain people out there, maybe it sounds normal for them to say 'Mom, i love you so much! Dad, I love you so much! And then they hug. As for me, I only kiss their hands when we shake hand. That's all. Is like something...you know...i don't know how to explain it. I feel ashame to say it....why arr..? And deep inside my heart, i love my mak and abah so muchhh! We are very intimate actually....we laugh together, we share stories, we make jokes together but we don't kiss and hug like in the movie where the relationship between children and parents are so close, they hug and they kiss...but that is not happen in my life. I don't know....i really want to kiss and hug them both, but...i don't know...

Maybe i show my feeling through something...like buying something that she/he likes. Like my father, he loves perfume so much (ini memang menurun dekat i, i pun suka perfume!). My mom loves jewellery but i have never had chance to buy her jewellery (takde duit nak beli!). I just buy something that i can afford and at the same time that thing must something she likes the most, like handbag, lipstick and compact powder (ini pun menurun dekat aku daaa...).

I remember what my friend told me one day. She is having the same situation like me. She told me, "Takkan nak tunggu orang tua kita mati baru kita nak cium jenazah diaorang kan...patutnya masa diaorang hidup ni la kita kena buat" (Why must we wait until they die then only we should kiss and hug them). And i almost shed a tear because what she said is true.

Mak, Abah... I LOVE U SO MUCH, WITHOUT YOU I WON'T BE ABLE TO SEE THE WORLD..... Mak dengan Abah MEMANG WORLDDDDDDD............

Miss Congeniality

Last time, when Monday comes...I feel like urgghhhhhh....un-exuberantly to start my day whenever i think about my unfinished work at the office (it was not happened every monday, all the times arr...sometimes only arr...) Sunday nite, Kak Eila or Putri called me or the other around, we were definitely talking the same topic like;

'Oi..sedihnya esok kerja, kalau ahad malam mesti aku rasa sedih je, apsal ek?' (Hey... we work tomorrow...so sad, every sunday nite i must feel like so sad, why?)

Suddenly i was thinking about Miss Congeniality, you know.. the movie. I love this movie so much especially the soundtrack - ONE IN A MILLION. This is an excellent comedy which kept me laughing all the way. It was a thoroughly entertaining movie and very well worth seeing. I feel like watching it again. When you look at the both pictures above, which one is suppose to be crowned as Miss Congeniality, me or Sandra Bullock??? <<<< Muahahahahahahahahha...The correct perfect answer will receive - a trip for the whole family to Paris, cash money usd10,000, a Sony Digicam and a flat screen tv 29". Just close your eyes for the moment of truth...because all the prizes are only in your dreamsssss....let's keep dreaming onnnnnnnnnn....yuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu...

World Cup 2006

World Cup datang lagi.... Muazzam has forwarded me a world cup rules and regulations to obey (i don't think the rules are from FIFA). Muazzam memang soccer addict! When we were watching Germany vs Costa Rica last Friday, as usual, i have flooded him with so many questions. The questions were something like;

You sokong mana? (Which team are you?)
Kenapa Ballack tak main? (Ballack don't play?)
Referee tu orang mana? (The referee, where is he comes from?)
Apa nama coach Germany tu? I lupa la... (The Germany coach, what's his name? I forgot..)
Apa nama mamat tu? Hensemnya... (Who is that? What's his name? So handsome...)

It was so delightful when all my questions were answered. Since that all the questions were answered, i was eagerly to know 'every single thing' about the game. Then i asked him again,

You agak-agak bola tu berapa harga dia? (You guess... how much is it...the ball?)

And then he answered it with a very nice tone very politely....so soft....

You boleh tak diam, tengok je, nanti ada la kena plaster mulut tu....(Can you keep quiet, just watch the game, if not i will plaster your mouth...)

And i was like ... la la la la la la la la la la la la..... Go Brazil, Go Spain, Go Italy!!

Sweet Home Kuching

Today i have booked my mom and dad's flight ticket to Kuching. My parents will be in Kuching on July 9 for a week. I was planned to join them, but i have to cancel due to my treatment schedule. I miss my hometown so much especially my grandfather. Last year i have chance to visit my relatives, i met them all. But i am still longing for them.... Last week my cousin - Ruby from Kuching called me, she said how wonderful if i could make myself on that 9th of July. She's quite close to me. Actually i can't wait to see her pictures taken while she was in Dubai last month. And soon she will be in Istanbul. Jealousnya aku!!!! Ada sesiapa yang kaya raya boleh taja aku tak?

Ok, back to my grandfather, i hardly talk to him over the phone because he has problem with his ears., but he is still in a good health and 'macho'. When i met him last year, that was so happy moment. You know when you talk with someone that has hearing problem, we have to speak out loud. In this case, i have to speak out VERY loud. My grandfather told me; 'there is no use to live, if we are deaf. My life is too long, i am already 78 and i can't hear anything when you talk to me, better if i die'

It was so sad to hear when he said something like that. I know how hard being someone who has lost one of the sense. Because i have been through that experience last 2 years where my ear drum was 'burst'. Now, alhamdulillah i've got back my ear after i underwent the operation.

Oh ya....my brother, his wife - Aiza and Shasha will be arrived in KLIA tonite. They spend their 'school holidays' in Kuching. Just now i have received a sms from my Mak Teh saying that 'kek lapis strawberry is on the way'. Yahooooooooooooo....i miss kek lapis.... laksa sarawak, udang galah, terubuk masin, kuih cincin, tebaloi............arghhhhhhhhhhhhh...i miss them all so much....

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Love that spinning roses! Last nite when Muazzam was busy with his World Cup, my mind just suddenly reminded of my lovely friends. Friendship is something that shouldn't stop. I have experienced a lot things in life about friendship. Some was bad, some was good. The sincerity in friendship, only your heart can tell....but as for me i don't really know how to judge people. When we start to shake hand with someone, it means the sign of friendship is already just begun.

I like to take example of the relationship between Monica, Rachel, Phoebe, Chandler, Ross and Joey in the comedy series F.R.I.E.N.D.S (minus the fallen in love, broken up, married and divorced la ye!). After been through a desultory relationship for so many times, finally they still hold on tight to each other. They have accepted the good and the bad of each other. They have given the good whenever the bad rushed in to each one of them.

Sometimes it's hard to know friend but it's easy to know good friend. People with phraseology background always says, good friend is someone who always by your side throughout your happiness and sadness. That is true. Now i know a few friends whom i can categorize in this phrase.

My dear friends...... thanks for being my friend! Happy Friendship Day.... (main hentam je wish) But consider that friendship day is everyday la ye... I love you all....

Lady Marmalade

I like the picture background. Credit to the photographer! That is Kak Eila with her lovely daughter – Fatih Eleasa, 11. Isn’t that this picture cute huh?! Actually she has 1 son and 2 daughters. Two of them are not in the picture. Hashriq – 19 and Fatih Eleanor – 13. We’ve been knowing each other for almost 12 years. Same goes to SPL, they both are like sisters to me. As I recall, we never have ‘domestic crisis’ in our relationship. I don’t know about taking it inside the heart….he he he he…rasanya takde kan…hope so!

Ok back to Kak Eila, in our group she’s like an eldest sister to us. One thing I like the most about her, is her philosophy – DON’T DRAG YOUR PROBLEMS INTO THE FIELD, THERE IS A SPACE FOR YOU TO TREASURE THE MOMENT OF BLISS. DON’T BURDEN YOUR HEAD SO MUCH THINKING ABOUT THOSE PROBLEMS! She once told me something like that. That’s why I often seen her always smile. When I was looking for someone to share about the movies, songs especially Winter Sonata, she is the one! We can talk almost everything about the movies and songs. Just imagine we have ever at one time spent together watching Winter Sonata the whole day. How crazy we were! Recently we have listening to the song by Engelbert Humperdinck. She said ‘we’ve got the same taste’, she even wondered why a person at my age can mention about Engelbert Humperdinck. And then we’ve started to recall the songs by Engelbert, like Quando, Quando, The Way It Used To Be (this is most my fav), The Last Waltz and etc.

Another one thing I love about her, she always makes us laugh with her spontaneous jokes. In this skill, I guess she is undefeated by the most comedian on this planet… I still remember until now, about one day while we were waiting for the ‘driver’ picking us up at the smoking shed. That time I was still working. Kak Eila and I were chatting at the smoking shed and her hand was holding a plastic of ‘belimbing buluh’ (small starfruits). So, while we were chatting, SPL has reached the smoking shed to pick her up (fyi, Kak Eila is a ‘by default’ passenger for CBH7505) In that muddle situation, one of the staff called up her name and asked;

‘Eila, what’s in the plastic bag?’

Kak Eila : Belumbung Bilih!!!

After she answered it, she just got in the car. Nothing worry her so much about the incorrect pronounciation. And everytime when I remember this, definitely I will grin widely. Actually there's a lot of things i love about Kak Eila.....

Kak Eila, SPL, I love you guys so much! Nothing on this earth can replace you guys.

How To Lose Weight In Ten Minutes

I have dropped 12 kg...(well heck, it was only in my dream!) Muazzam always said "you bukan gemuk, cuma you kena control your weight je"(you are not fat, it's just you should control your weight). Maybe he's trying to say something nice without hurting me. And maybe he's right. But one day he bought me a dvd -10 MINUTE WORKOUTS TO SHAPE UP YOUR WHOLE BODY. What does it means? I was in deep bewildered so i need someone expert to explain pleaseeeeee!!!!!!

Forget about that bewilderment. So I try to do it everyday for ten days, ten minutes per day, yes, it works. I can feel my calories were blasted. But day after day, i was getting lack of energy doing it, even for only ten minutes, i feel like ten hours or ten days long. When i looked myself in the mirror and murmured; I'm not that fat actually, it's just that i'm putting some weight muahahahahahaha Before i've got married, my weight was around 38kg, and nowwwwwwwww...sorry i can't tell you. THIS IS STRICTLY PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTIAL.

After i went thru a laser operation, it was not meant for my weight actually, it meant for my treatment to conceive. I have lost my weight about 4 kg. (This is not an artificial movie ok, it's proven when my friends also noticed about the drop). So i plan to maintain my weight by; EATING RIGHT AND DISCIPLINE MYSELF.

Let's take a look at my higgledy-piggledy diet story -

Last weekend on Saturday, Muazzam's office mate has invited us for his 'kenduri doa selamat'. Over there we were served with daging masak kari (beef curry), ayam sambal (chicken fried with chilli - my favourite), sayur kacang panjang goreng (fried beans vege) and syrup jelly. Actually i did not take chicken for quite sometime since the 'birds flu' several months ago. And now the chicken is free from the flu, alhamdulillah (Praise to ALLAH). And i ate a lot... i took chicken, beef, all of it, senang cerita (is easy to tell). Burpppp....

On Sunday, the following day.... We've got wedding invitation. Muazzam's friend has got married. And againnnn....the dishes were; ayam sambal, daging masak kerutup, kari dal (dal curry), acar nenas (pineapple piccalilli) and watermelons. Wowww.....(this was come from my stomach)! Againnnn...I took all of it..aiyoo....and again burpppp..... This is more like taking a vendetta against my diet because at home i rarely cook beef and chicken, statistic - once/6 months (part of my diet but we did buy KFC, McD, Kenny Rogers as we feel we want it huhuhuhuhu) At night, I said to Muazzam 'kita makan ringan-ringan aje la malam ni ok, dah dua hari berturut-turut la kita makan heavy food' (we eat something light tonite ok, we have already taken heavy food for two days). So i have prepared;

1) Tempura Fish Cocktails and
2) Tempura Seafood combo with
3) Chilli Sauce

I simply don't have recipe for these two muahhahahahahahah....It's frozen in the fridge from THE STORE. After we have finished our dinner buttttttttt i was feeling not enough, later i took some famous amos brownies and cookies (O my god!). Hancusss!

Once Upon A Time In China

Zhuhai. Located in China near by Macau and Hong Kong. My flight landed in Hong Kong International Airport after six hours journey from KLIA. Actually a story about China, it's like an ancient story, but suddenly i just remembered the sweet times when i was there. Al maklum la kali pertama pergi overseas (My first time travelling to overseas). When i reached at Hong Kong, the weather was cold, i think it was around 5 degree celcius.

Muazzam said he's not gonna be in Hong Kong waiting for me because i've got accompanied by a companymate. But he lied, he was there and grinned! Surprise la kononnnn....but i wasn't shocked anyway! From Hong Kong to Zhuhai, we took a ferry. 45 minutes later we reached Zhuhai.

For me Zhuhai is a nice town except for the food. Halal food is hardly found there. I prefer to cook by myself. I don't know why i feel so diligently to cook when i was there. I thought maybe that time i got nothing to do (i was one month on unpaid leave) and some more i loved their wet market so much, fishes, prawns, squids, they were all fresh and 'alive'. I still remember until now, how the squids and prawns were crawling in the sink. One more thing, the fruits there were so fresh and 'beautiful'! I ate strawberries almost everyday! Strawberry there was so cheap. We can get a kilo for only RM5.00. Damn...Ohhhh i miss that strawberry so much! Along the way to wet market, we can see snakes, rats, cats and etc. in the cage. They sell it. I didn't expect there was a demand in there! After what i have seen, I have decided not to go to the wet market anymore. There was simply no reason for that! ha ha ha

I am bluffing if i say i don't shopping. There was an underground shopping centre called Gong Bei Port. It was so big and fantastic and bombastic. Here we can find Gucci, Chanel, Salvatore Ferragamo, Burberry, Louis Vuitton bountifully. Don't get jealous, I bought my Louis Vuitton handbag for only RM20.00, but of course it was a fake one lorr..! I don't think i can have the ori one for the rest of my life, so the conclusion is i love the fake one than the ori one...muahahahahahaha

Shenzen and Guangzhou. I went both places. Shenzen is a big city and Guangzhu too. I will share my moments in Shenzen and Guangzhou with you, maybe some other time. That time i wish i could meet Jet Li you know...., but last night he was in my dream saying that he will be my Bodyguard From Beijing!

The Concoction Of Our Life

I believe our life is like how you concoct several colors inside one cup. The result will reflect when you daub the concoction on the canvas, imagine the canvas is your life. No matter what the result is, you should accept it because you are the 'concocter'. If you don't like with the result, you may want to do another concoction and daub it over the new canvas. You can do it over and over and over again until you meet with the word - satisfaction.

There's something flicks my mind when i was doing my 'masterpiece' (wow! See attached. It looks like my masterpiece is not photogenic, ha ha ha ha). I think about my previous time when i was in my position as a secretary. At that time i was not expected that i would be in that position, but that we call REZEKI (good fortune). But i wonder why, some people cannot accept other people's good fortune. I was happy, but some people.......umphh...they were not happy for me. I lost my friends which that time was good to me.... just because of my 'rezeki'. 8 months after i enjoyed being in that position, i was decided to end my 'career'. But after what i have been thru, that was not a triggered factor why i choose to release something which i love the most. Is just that i want to do a new concoction of my life, to change the colors, to find a new canvas and to get the best result!

The concoction of our life is never ever linked to somebody else. Is you who concoct the colors, is you who decide what colors to mix, and the most important.... is you who daub it on your own canvas. So if we don't get a good result, would you think is right to put the blame on others? If we don't get what we want, whereas other people deserved it than you, would you question thousand times why she/he got it?

Well...let's learn on how to concoct the colors properly......and toast to good things!

Me In The Middle

My mom used to say "Anak tengah ni, pandai bawak diri, dia buat hal dia je" (Middle kid knows how to carry themselves). That is true. Being in the middle in the family is quite interesting, don't you think so? I have 5 siblings, and i am in the middle!

Ros my eldest sister, my brother Nawar, ME In The Middle, my brother Can and the youngest, Sue.

All married.

I have once asked my mom, how am i when i was a little kid? She said, "Anak-anak aku semuanya baik-baik masa kecik" (My kids are really good while they were kids). Then i asked back, "Bila besar tak baik ke mak?" (Are we not good now?). And then she answered "Takde la, dah besar lagi baikkkkkkk..." (Nay, all of you are really goodddddd now). That time i confused, because she was pressing down the word GOOD! ha ha ha ha....what does it means anyway?

As my mom recalls, when i was 6, she said i got 5 stitches on my chin. I was fallen down from the slide. And then when i was 9, i got 4 stiches on my forehead, because i was eagerly to be a wrestling star, so i was wrestled with one of the boy from the neighbourhood. When i was 11, i have pedalled the bicycle straight into the big drain! One more, my mom said, i loved to collect 'rubbish' and bring it to home, example; un-ink pen, broken vase, empty boxes, bottles. My mom will definitely throw it away and after that i will collect it back!! I'm not remember at all, but i still remember a bit about the bleeding forehead and how i was bounced into the big drain. Am i similar with Malcolm In The Middle?? Maybe a bit huh?!

Some say, middle daughter/son, has the ability to run their life independently. They just do what they think right to do, they don't care much what people talk about them, they are sensitive and they are simple! At 'positive' site, some people say that middle kids are very demanding!

Only ME can tell....and don't forget to add THEY ARE KIND AND SOFT HEARTED......muahhahahahahahahahahahaha