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:: La tahzan... ::

Zalina ~ La tahzan... My condolences to you and the rest of the family. I know how you feel at this moment. I feel it. I feel it before and until now it is still.
I burst into tears when i got message from a bosom friend of mine SPL, texting that Zalina's father passed away last Tuesday, it was mid night. I was so emotional, I sat on the couch silently and that time my parents face that first came to mind. How i miss them so much, no one can tell.
Zalina ~ I still taste the pain. I know you taste it too. You have once told me about the intimacy between children and their parents. And i remember i blogged about it. It was in 2005 if i am not mistaken. Because of your words, i changed my perception about the relationship between the parents and the daughter. I didn't feel ashame to hug, to kiss, to hold them... and I remember a week before my father passed away, he came to me and asked me to hold his hands. And i hold it, rubbed it... i should have done it long time ago for many …

:: Just Because.... ::

Just because someone is repenting for his/her mistake, it doesn't change the past
Just because someone is weeping on his/her wrongdoing, it doesn't change the past
Just because someone is asking for an apology, still... it doesn't change the past

Yes... it doesn't change the past at all. It is like it's being fine tuned in the mind, buried in the heart. A gigantic pain in the soul, an inexplicably poignant feeling inside. It's all about the past that changed some people's life. Actually the past, something i would say it is uneconomic matters that we must drop it out from the budget breakdown. But it is uneasy like sipping a cup of delicious coffee from Coffee Bean though! In fact, i sometimes feel, it's getting worse when it started dwells inside you.

I was trapped in this situation before, but i managed to get away of it 95%. And turned out, it wasn't easy to totally kill the past. At first, I found that it was extremely challenging and second why bot…