Skip to main content

:: The Day I Lost You ::

The day I lost you, it was tormented moment

The day I lost you, it was suffered

The day I lost you, it was full of sadness

The day I lost you, it was full of darkness

The day I lost you, i felt pain

The day I lost you, i felt lonely

The day I lost you, i felt the life seemed liveliness

and the day I lost you, i felt lost...

Losing someone you love is never easy thing to handle. I used to have suffered inside. Outside, i can be the most happiest person and no one even noticed it. That day, life was like totally consumed by sorrow., lost of words suddenly. What was going on inside...., no one can feel what you feel until they face the same thing, then they know how it feels.

The day i lost my parents, i feel like myself had plummeted on the ground, like never seemed to get up. The first morning i wake up, knowing that i have lost them, i feel the true emptiness and loneliness. Then i know what is actually emptiness, loneliness means to me. I used to read and hear about people being lonely when they lost their loved ones and i just feel sorry. I just didn't know how exactly they feel that time until one day.. it was my turn to feel it, i was the chosen one to face the test. And then you know suddenly the world sleeps... and never seems to wake up.

Have you ever been in the situation where you feel like you were torn between feeling lonely and feeling empty? As the word 'torn'... it hurts, you feel lost and abandoned. The situation that time, was really pulling me down and i stayed in the room with my tears just like torrential rain that never seemed to stop. And.....
I thank you ALLAH for giving strength and making me this strong till now.


Popular posts from this blog

:: Please Stay With Me, Mr Happiness ::

~Please stay with me Mr Happiness... and don't go!~

When you see something that breaks your heart, what would you do?

When something snatches your happiness, what would you do?

Are you gonna weep on it for years or you gonna find a way to get back the happiness?

CERTAIN THINGS ARE EASIER SAID THAN DONE. I know it... and it is true right until something unpredictable happened in your life, you are speechless. And all the things you have said before, now you find it so hard to do. The truth is we don't know how terrible the thing is, until it snaps on your face. Ouchh.. it is hurt!

"I'll never break your heart, I'll never make you cry"

If only the words could guarantee all the promises made... I am sure there would be no unhappy chapter in someone's life at all. But like rules are meant to be broken, same goes to promises. Well, sometimes all the promises are not meant to be exactly like what it was nailed in agreement. It's all made by human, which by nature…

:: Am I climbing on the bandwagon? ::

I was sitting in my room with frustrated tears wetting on my cheek. First time feeling like a recluse for a moment in my life. I can't believe that happened. And too bad i can't do anything! I just can't. I was stunned, petrified... just like a stupid stubble over there! I am sorry for letting you through everything alone that time, i am so sorry.. so sorry because i was too scared.
Being in idyllic life for years, i thank you ALLAH for that...Amin. And i do hope i will live in this kinda life for another 100 years (masih adakah aku lagi?). I am saying this when i saw something that totally vice versa. Some people is lucky to have such an idyllic days in life, some may be not. When i am happy, i forgot there is someone unhappy. There is someone who suffered for years just to see the loved ones live the life without turmoil. I started to question myself again and again. Was this sacrifice? Can we call this sacrifice? A noble sacrifice might be? Or is this a person with nobl…

:: When something is unforgiven... ::

.... that is wrong. We forgive and forget... this is right, true. But it's difficult thing to do. I have been thru this situation before. 'You're forgiven!' whereas inside, only He knows what is actually you feel. When something bad happens in our life, it hurts you badly and it leaves big scar inside... and things that hurt you, it's like it stuck in your brain 24/7. How could we call it - it's forgiven! Maybe thru your lips, it's forgiven but how about your heart? Does your mouth and heart braces together?

I am not Canon - delighting you always!

Sometimes i have right to feel hurt. I am kinda person who loves to see people around me happy for what i am doing. Delighting people around me everytime when they are with me. But like i said, I am not Canon. I treat people around me the best i could and until i almost forgot something... : Sometimes, no matter how best you treat someone, they will never treat you back the same way. I agree. Regardless you best fri…