Friday, January 10, 2020

:: It Will Happen When It Happens ::

Assalamualaikum


We are in the year 2020, yes..we are. I remember back then when I was 16, I have imagined myself in the year 2020. First thing I imagined, that I was married to someone I love so much of course (gatal kan! Macam takde benda lain ko nak imagine Hahaha). Have kids, live in a beautiful house, etc.. bingo! Time really flies dowhh... and I am not getting younger dowh of course!

Now, I am in the year 2020, well a lot of things have changed and that's for sure. As time passed, the more I experienced, the more thankful I became. Alhamdulillah, I am happy with the journey I am traveled so far. 

Life is a journey, long journey and it will end one day! Definitely. No matter how tired we are after a very long walk, we spent years exploring life, we made mistakes, we chose the wrong junction, we reversed and met the crossroads, we confused, we moved on until we found the right point and we walked and walked...  but one day the steps will stop. But my writings won't stop yo.. ok let's continue down here yo;

Throughout the journey, we meet many things. Things that make us happy, things that make us sad, many. But always put this in mind, happiness is a gift, sadness is a gift, suffering is a gift, all you have is a gift. A gift from ALLAH swt. Always remember, this world is not the place for you to get whatever you want. I will always say this to my babies. Iman Mishary Zafran, Lydia Arissa & Eijaz Luqman mama will always pray for you.

A couple of days ago, I carried a lot of anger in my heart from something I hate to say.  I hope I can get this some kind of liberation from the anger, pain and hurt. Eeeee eeee eeeee.. see, I am still angry. I don't wanna do something maudlin rambling here. So, calm down babe, this is a test and this is also a gift from Him. Ya ALLAH, Ya Sobur, give me more sabr please! I try to say this to myself, don't worry so much about something that makes you worry so much. It will happen when it happens and it's over till it's over. It is all in ALLAH's timing. So don't worry too much because ALLAH knows best what is best for you. HE is the knower of all things.

My vision this year is to recite more Al Quran. Can't wait for Ramadhan. I don't know when my journey gonna end and hopefully, it will end up with husnul khotimah. Aamiin Ya Mujib. 

:: Muse - Unintended ::