A friend of mine had passed away early this month. She had suffered with cancer. I was speechless the moment i got sms from my ex colleague telling me "Kak Rai had passed away, al fatihah". Again i was feeling like my head stubbed into something big..so hard... and it hurts.
Feeling a little bit spacey about this, maybe i was just carried away with the past where i lost my beloved parents. Actually myself is still not yet fully recovered. But again i would like to remind myself, it was a test for me, a huge test and i have to be strong. He knows that i can face it. ALLAHuakbar...
Life is like that... life is like waves... the happiness, the sadness, it comes in a second and it goes in a second too. Today we are so happy for what we have, then we go to sleep as usual, then we wake up, open up our eyes slowly and then the only thing we realize, the happiness is no longer with us, it was replaced with the sadness. The process will keep on circling, then the sadness... replaced by the happiness... it is a fair process...indeed! SubhanALLAH...
When i looked at my closet, my eyes was glued to an exquisite brown batik which i bought from Kak Rai. Then automatically my mind picturing her face. She was a nice person, rich sense of humour and friendly. I still remember how busy we were with our direct selling business. Although the business didn't work, now something popped up my mind.... at least i have memories with her. I remembered she went to my house, we were chatting, laughing... and now she's gone.....
As human being, our permanent destination will be the same. We will go to one place, eternal place, where we will be there eternally. Everyone of us! No one can't run or escape, although we have escapology or even being escapologist, it can't help us. So, let's not waste the 'little' time we have, fully utilize it with good things, doing noble things!
AL FATIHAH untuk Arwah Kak Rai.
